by Moya Boardman
I feel like someone who has been dying of thirst & suddenly is given a drink of water. It tastes so incredible that I sip & savour each mouthful - but then it is taken away. There is such longing & searching.
Tonight God drew near to woo us, to pull us close to Himself. To allow Him to gaze on us tenderly & with passion. I saw what seemed like huge petals gently swirling round & dropping slowly down, each one softly draped over someone & God said He was covering us as He was our nearest kinsman. He was taking the burden from us, taking responsibility for us.
Where we thought everything in life had been taken from us & was dead to us He saw that we had followed Him. He said He had covered the past and that He was taking us into our (His & your) future.
There was such a sweetness of God, He was tenderly passionate with us, it started to become intoxicating but some were unaware, some uncomfortable and unconsciously maybe stepped back from yielding totally & just being in His presence. They could not yet stop & “be”.
He was gentle & said “This is not a first date” meaning - ”Don’t feel awkward”. I remember my first date, my first kiss; I thought “Well that’s nothing much” however….
In a very dark time of my life God started talking to me about intimacy & I said “The only intimacy that I know is physical, the powerful intimacy of sex. God I don’t want to mix my sexuality with intimacy with you”. He told me to hold that lightly and to go to the deepest feeling I’d know & then to go beneath that because as “the way of a man with a women” is a mystery & a picture of God & man so he was going to show me & help me to experience that spiritual intimacy. It is what truly satisfies. Lust is never satisfied but God’s love is always fulfilled & fulfilling.
Can you picture yourself face to face with Jesus, looking deeply into His eyes, can you see the love there can you let Him “kiss you with the kisses of His mouth” Have you ever been spiritually kissed? Sometimes our flesh does get in the way & we don’t want that but in pulling back we pull away from God. It is possible to separate the two - our fleshly response & our spirit’s rising to the one who made us. It is like learning to tune an instrument - you have to train yourself to hear - you thought you knew how but as you persist you are amazed at how many more sounds there are than you thought - don’t give up, ask God to teach you. God first & foremost made us for connection with Him - the world, the flesh & the devil try to steal that.
Cross the line you have not crossed before because it will bring life to you. Can you imagine being that close to Jesus & being sick? Being consumed by Him and being in pain? Actually if you are able to think about yourself than you haven’t got there yet.
In the natural when you are that close, yielded to each other you are totally unaware of anything else, what a beautiful picture of worship - how can anything else cross our minds when Jesus is so close you can feel His breath? When all that fills you is Him, how wonderful He is, how kind, gentle, funny, accepting - you forget everything else but Him. Wow - true worship A faint reflection of the love that consumes Him for us, for the world.
All over the world the opposite is happening, people use people to fill their needs, songs are sung to the idols of sex, money - mostly sex. The idol of self is raised up & people defiled. What if the world was filled with the “true worshippers” that the Father seeks?
How do you see what happens in a small hall in Radstock in God’s global plan? Do you see how significant what we do is - how pure worship, connection, intimacy has an effect in creation. We effect creation as it groans, we raise a light in a dark world, it joins with the other lights. God wants us to burn for Him.
Intimacy with God is like the axis of a wheel - get it in the right place & things run smoothly & you don’t have to work so hard. (rest in His peace) Take it out & you have a rough time. (Striving)
I feel like someone who has been dying of thirst & suddenly is given a drink of water. It tastes so incredible that I sip & savour each mouthful - but then it is taken away. There is such longing & searching.
Tonight God drew near to woo us, to pull us close to Himself. To allow Him to gaze on us tenderly & with passion. I saw what seemed like huge petals gently swirling round & dropping slowly down, each one softly draped over someone & God said He was covering us as He was our nearest kinsman. He was taking the burden from us, taking responsibility for us.
Where we thought everything in life had been taken from us & was dead to us He saw that we had followed Him. He said He had covered the past and that He was taking us into our (His & your) future.
There was such a sweetness of God, He was tenderly passionate with us, it started to become intoxicating but some were unaware, some uncomfortable and unconsciously maybe stepped back from yielding totally & just being in His presence. They could not yet stop & “be”.
He was gentle & said “This is not a first date” meaning - ”Don’t feel awkward”. I remember my first date, my first kiss; I thought “Well that’s nothing much” however….
In a very dark time of my life God started talking to me about intimacy & I said “The only intimacy that I know is physical, the powerful intimacy of sex. God I don’t want to mix my sexuality with intimacy with you”. He told me to hold that lightly and to go to the deepest feeling I’d know & then to go beneath that because as “the way of a man with a women” is a mystery & a picture of God & man so he was going to show me & help me to experience that spiritual intimacy. It is what truly satisfies. Lust is never satisfied but God’s love is always fulfilled & fulfilling.
Can you picture yourself face to face with Jesus, looking deeply into His eyes, can you see the love there can you let Him “kiss you with the kisses of His mouth” Have you ever been spiritually kissed? Sometimes our flesh does get in the way & we don’t want that but in pulling back we pull away from God. It is possible to separate the two - our fleshly response & our spirit’s rising to the one who made us. It is like learning to tune an instrument - you have to train yourself to hear - you thought you knew how but as you persist you are amazed at how many more sounds there are than you thought - don’t give up, ask God to teach you. God first & foremost made us for connection with Him - the world, the flesh & the devil try to steal that.
Cross the line you have not crossed before because it will bring life to you. Can you imagine being that close to Jesus & being sick? Being consumed by Him and being in pain? Actually if you are able to think about yourself than you haven’t got there yet.
In the natural when you are that close, yielded to each other you are totally unaware of anything else, what a beautiful picture of worship - how can anything else cross our minds when Jesus is so close you can feel His breath? When all that fills you is Him, how wonderful He is, how kind, gentle, funny, accepting - you forget everything else but Him. Wow - true worship A faint reflection of the love that consumes Him for us, for the world.
All over the world the opposite is happening, people use people to fill their needs, songs are sung to the idols of sex, money - mostly sex. The idol of self is raised up & people defiled. What if the world was filled with the “true worshippers” that the Father seeks?
How do you see what happens in a small hall in Radstock in God’s global plan? Do you see how significant what we do is - how pure worship, connection, intimacy has an effect in creation. We effect creation as it groans, we raise a light in a dark world, it joins with the other lights. God wants us to burn for Him.
Intimacy with God is like the axis of a wheel - get it in the right place & things run smoothly & you don’t have to work so hard. (rest in His peace) Take it out & you have a rough time. (Striving)